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Cats' Corners: the little HOUSE in the woods....
Where House is NEVER safe...
The More Things Change... Chapter TWENTY-FOUR 
1st-Jun-2007 07:15 am
PoignantWilsonHouse
Summary:  Wilson is given an unexpected opportunity to prove his friendship to House.  This story is my own attempt to make sense of the unsettling disruption of the House-Wilson dynamic in Season 3, so mention is made of many of the S3 plotlines and character development.  House-Wilson-Cuddy angst, hurt/comfort, introspection--my usual gig.  ;)  x-posted
Rating:  PG

Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three 
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen 
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three


CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR: BREATHING ROOM
 
When Foreman enters House’s cubicle, Wilson and Cuddy see him, but pay no attention; they’re deep into a heated discussion. Foreman stands quietly at the door—he knows that no one else has any place in the decisions these two are trying to make.
 
Foreman had been in the Diagnostics office when Chase, clearly disturbed, had come in. Chase had told him about House’s worsening condition, the respiratory distress, Wilson’s demand for a ventilator. And then he’d revealed the details of his confidential conversation with House. So Foreman had taken a few minutes to bring himself up to date on House’s condition. Then he’d examined his own feelings about what was transpiring, and he’d discovered that he understood both sides of the argument. Now, he’s here to provide whatever support he can, whichever way the decision goes. So he waits.
 
“He’s suffering,” Wilson tells Cuddy as they both watch House pull in a torturous breath at the end of eighteen seconds of apnea.
 
“And if we put him on a vent, we’ll be prolonging the suffering. He’s comatose now; in all likelihood he’s unaware of what’s happening to him. And in a few hours, a day maybe, it’ll… be over. But if we intubate, get him on the respirator, he may regain consciousness at some point. And then he’ll know that he’s dying, that medically we’re powerless to help him. He’ll know everything, he’ll feel everything. Is that what you want for him?” Cuddy looks deep into Wilson’s eyes, trying to make him understand.
 
“You know it isn’t,” Wilson answers fervently. “But it doesn’t have to be that way. We’ll keep him heavily sedated, and the vent’ll buy us the time we need to figure out how to treat this. I’ve got a couple leads on clinical trials; I’m waiting on a callback right now on a new compound that’s shown promising results. Time, Cuddy. That’s all I’m asking for—a little more time.”
 
Cuddy sighs. “Sedation isn’t foolproof, and if anyone can fight it off, it’ll be House. I’m sorry; his kidneys are failing, his lungs are failing. The latest lab results indicate that his liver’s next. And what happens when—not if, but when—the infection stops responding to linezolid?”
 
“By then, we’ll have something else; I know it. Come on, Cuddy; we’re wasting time! While we’re standing here debating this, we’re risking hypoxia, stroke, respiratory arrest—and we’re not giving him the chance he needs to fight this.”
 
Cuddy puts a hand on Wilson’s arm and leads him over to sit on the edge of the cot. Both the situation and the discussion have left him drained, and he allows it. Cuddy sits beside him.
 
“Let’s say you’re right,” Cuddy says quietly. “Let’s say that we get him on the vent, stabilize him until we find an effective treatment. Surely you’re aware of what his recovery would be like, the sequelae he’d face in light of his current condition. And that’s assuming that nothing else goes wrong during treatment.”
 
“Of course I’m aware of it. I know how long his recovery will be, the complications he’ll face. But we’ll deal with them. He’s gonna be angry, miserable. He’ll make my life a living hell; I get that. And I’m okay with it. Told you I’m not Stacy; not gonna cut and run on him, no matter what he does, what he says.”
 
“What if he meant what he said to Chase?  What if you’re wrong about him changing his mind, and that’s the way he feels now?”
 
Wilson takes a deep breath, locks his eyes with Cuddy’s. “He’s been depressed, seriously depressed. And we didn’t know just how bad it was until the brain cancer stunt. But you know what that told me? Told me he doesn’t just want to live, he wants a better life than he’s got now. When he found out I’d been dosing him with antidepressants, he didn’t get angry. More importantly, he didn’t quit taking them! Cuddy, he doesn’t want to die; maybe what he wants is another chance at life. And right now, you’re the only one who can give me that chance.”
 
Cuddy stares at WilsonHe doesn’t realize what he just said—he didn’t catch his slip, saying ‘me’ instead of ‘him’. This isn’t just about House for him. House was right; Wilson does see this as his last chance to make things right. House is going to die. But before that happens, Wilson’s got to feel that he’s done everything humanly possible for him. And then maybe Wilson will be able to go on. Maybe House would understand that. Maybe he’d even approve….
 
Cuddy looks over at House, then back to Wilson. “And if we do this, and he dies?”
 
“That’s not going to happen. But… if he doesn’t make it… he’ll die knowing that we cared enough, loved him enough, to fight for him.”
 
Cuddy has to blink away tears, and Wilson can see that she’s beginning to waver. “Look, he’s going to get better,” Wilson says. “It’ll be long; it’ll be hard. But I’ll take a leave of absence from my practice, from the hospital. I’ll make sure he’s never alone, never has a chance to brood. I’ll take care of him, and I’ll monitor his mental state. And he’ll get through it, we’ll get through it. Whatever it takes.” He looks at Cuddy, and the plea in his eyes is as loud as a shout.
 
“You’d give it all up, your own life, everything, just to help him?”
 
“That’s what friends do,” Wilson says simply.
 
Cuddy smiles faintly. “Do me a favor. Next time you’re near a dictionary, look up self preservation. And then, try to learn what it means, okay?” She leans over and gives Wilson a hug.
 
“Is that a yes?” Wilson’s afraid to hope. When Cuddy nods wordlessly, he hugs her back. “Thank you,” he whispers. “You won’t be sorry.”
 
They both stand and return to House’s side. “I’ll do it,” Wilson tells Cuddy quietly, but she can hear the immense strain in his voice.
 
“No,” she responds. “I’ll do it. I can’t order Chase to go against a patient’s expressed wishes.”
 
Wilson almost smiles. “Why not? House makes him do it all the time.”
 
Foreman steps forward, and Wilson and Cuddy both startle; they’d forgotten he was there. “I do this a lot more often than either of you,” he tells them. “And God knows, wouldn’t wanna risk damaging House’s precious vocal cords!”
 
At his last remark, Cuddy and Wilson finally have genuine smiles on their pale, worried faces, which is exactly what Foreman had intended. He nods at them both, then says to Cuddy, “Take this man down to the cafeteria for some coffee, and get a decent meal into him.”
 
Wilson starts to protest; then he sees Foreman’s eyes. The message is clear—you don’t need to see this; don’t argue with me—and it’s wrapped in compassion. So Wilson nods, then looks down at his comatose friend.
 
“Not going far, pal. Be back soon. And… you’re in good hands.” Wilson looks gratefully over at Foreman. “The best.”

Chapter Twenty-Five
Thoughts 
1st-Jun-2007 11:47 am (UTC)
Wow. Your Foreman blew me away. I don't want House to die and maybe that's why I'm a little irked at Chase (even though I know he was honoring what the patient wanted) but Foreman's position and how he handled himself in front of Cuddy and WIlson was brilliant. He showed he cared but without losing his professionalism and embarrasing anyone. Great job with the story so far! I am hooked!
1st-Jun-2007 11:54 am (UTC)
Foreman blew me away

of the three fellows, foreman's the only one who i felt would quickly be able to view the situation objectively. i believe the other two could do that eventually, but when a patient isn't... uh... breathing there is a bit of a time factor involved! ;)
1st-Jun-2007 12:27 pm (UTC) - Nice job
Anonymous
I like this Forman a lot, much better than the one in the show. I feel that Wilson not only admits that he needs this to make things right, but also his unconditional love to house, very touching and cannot wait for the next chapter.
1st-Jun-2007 01:01 pm (UTC) - Re: Nice job
I like this Forman a lot, much better than the one in the show.

am i the only one who can see canon!foreman doing this?????
Re: Nice job - Anonymous - Expand
1st-Jun-2007 12:40 pm (UTC)
Really like how you portrayed Foreman here! And I'm all for what Wilson wants to do but, listening to Cuddy say "He'll know everything he'll feel everything." just made my heart ache for House (and Wilson- cause he has to know how much this is all going to hurt House.) And Foreman's you don’t need to see this; don’t argue with me- Wilson is willing to do everything for House but seeing him in pain and distress (more than he is now) is really going to wear him down, at least he's getting a brief break before having to deal with what's coming. It's a good thing he's as stubborn as House!

And thanks again for an early posting- I do like reading this before going in to work- gives me something more interesting to think about than how slow things are! :)
1st-Jun-2007 01:04 pm (UTC)
listening to Cuddy say "He'll know everything he'll feel everything." just made my heart ache for House

oh, i do know what you mean--my heart twisted just writing those lines. poor house. poor wilson. poor cuddy. i'm so going to Hell.....
1st-Jun-2007 12:47 pm (UTC)
Who was this character "Foreman" you wrote about? I don't remember seeing anyone like him on the show (and not just in the last couple of weeks.)

I'm torn between wanting him to live and being upset that House's wishes aren't being honored. In some ways that's a repeat of what happened after the infarction. Stacy signed the consent to save his life too.
1st-Jun-2007 01:16 pm (UTC)
I don't remember seeing anyone like him on the show

you don't remember the foreman who sat with victoria, the homeless woman in 'histories,' as she lay dying--and pretended to be paul, her husband, to bring her some final comfort? you don't remember the foreman who--this season--tried to convince Jack, in 'whac-a-mole,' that he'd someday regret giving up his brother and sister? you don't remember the foreman who, through both of house's detoxes, could see both sides of that whole issue?

I'm torn between wanting him to live and being upset that House's wishes aren't being honored.

cuddy's torn, too. and... we haven't seen the last of wilson's struggle with this, either. grim situation, all around.

1st-Jun-2007 01:15 pm (UTC)
*dies*

Well, Cuddy blinked away tears, so I did. At my job. Gawds.

Wonderful. Strong, and crude. Love your Cuddy, always. She's so right... but Wilson is so desperate that I think I couldn't have said him no either. *hugs Wilson*

And 4man. I like Foreman best than the other ducklings, ever. xDD "you don’t need to see this". Aw. *hugs 4man*

*sighs* Love you torturing us with it. It's so very true that this is that realistic that it hurts, it's like they're some kind of family or so x_D

Terrible.

...No wonder my father sometimes told me that it seems that gruffy doctor is sitting on the table at lunch at my side... X_D
1st-Jun-2007 01:21 pm (UTC)
Love your Cuddy, always. She's so right... but Wilson is so desperate that I think I couldn't have said him no either.

she is right; but she recognizes that even if house dies--especially if house dies--wilson needs this time with house so that wilson can go on.

*hugs Wilson*

wilson currently needs all the hugs he can get! ;)
1st-Jun-2007 01:35 pm (UTC)
thank you!
for not letting him die, for updating so soon and everthing...

I have to say, I really like your Foreman. Much better than the "real" one at the end of s3.

I can now sleep calmly, knowing that House has a little more time. ;-)
1st-Jun-2007 01:54 pm (UTC)
I can now sleep calmly, knowing that House has a little more time.

yeah, well, wilson better get to work on a cure, don'tcha think? ;) glad you can sleep--i'd hate to think i was responsible for giving anyone (besides wilson, of course!) a sleepless night!!
1st-Jun-2007 02:28 pm (UTC)
We need an icon that says 'Friends don't let friends double-dose.' Because it's true, as we've seen. And...please explain why the others think Foreman is so special right this moment? And...I still disagree with Wilsie, but not as much as I did last chapter. I'm still on Chase's side, though, about respecting House's wishes. I wish he'd snap his backbone into place for a moment and remind Wilson that he's not exactly known for that on a good day, let alone when House is ill.

And...when Wilson's more rested and can truly understand what I'd be lecturing him about, I'd like to have a chance to yell. Loudly and vociferously. *nods* About his not sleeping. About his not being House's mom. About his remembering that House is a damned adult and should be allowed to make his own decisions. I think that every medical decision House has ever made in regard to himself has been a reflection of the fact that he's never really felt in control of anything. The choice was always, always taken away from him for one reason or another by people who thought they knew best. This has usually been to his detriment. No one ever really asks his opinion about things and they all assume he's just going to be sarcastic and flippant. And that's what he then does because they've never believed he could be anything else.

And thank blackmare for me on behalf of people with parents who like to know when their only child is in the hospital dying of a rare and deadly disease. (Or shot or being poisoned by his own bodily functions due to a misdiagnosis that never should have been allowed to happen.) *nods* And kick the writers for making you forget.
1st-Jun-2007 02:59 pm (UTC)
No one ever really asks his opinion about things and they all assume he's just going to be sarcastic and flippant. And that's what he then does because they've never believed he could be anything else.

wilson explains (and justifies) his decision very soon. trust me.

honey, i need you to go read the f-list entry i just posted; maybe you can give me some insight. please
1st-Jun-2007 02:52 pm (UTC)
Agh! Tears. That last line killed me. I've been following this fic for a while now and I believe, because of the combination of desperate Wilson and understanding Foreman, that this chapter is the best. So far. I'm waiting [im]patiently for the next chapter!
1st-Jun-2007 03:01 pm (UTC)
because of the combination of desperate Wilson and understanding Foreman, that this chapter is the best.

thank you for believing in compassionate!foreman--because i really think he does exist!
1st-Jun-2007 03:28 pm (UTC)
Cuddy has to blink away tears - and so do I...

Is that light I see at the end of the tunnel? No, wait...it was Foreman!

You're the best (I never lost faith!)

x
1st-Jun-2007 03:33 pm (UTC)
Is that light I see at the end of the tunnel? No, wait...it was Foreman!

foreman's most capable (of the three fellows) of being able to put aside his own beliefs, if the evidence is strong enough (remember how that deathrow inmate caused him to rethink his own lifeviews?). it's amazing what i'm realizing about all of these characters, as i work on this story!
1st-Jun-2007 03:50 pm (UTC)
I'm about to gush all over Foreman. This is so refreshing, after the way he's been acting in the latest episodes. >.>

Bridge To Terabithia--read by Robert Sean Leonard

Guh, don't you just love his voice? Especially that one part where he curses -- y'know, with the crayons and bitching and everything? *happy glow*
1st-Jun-2007 03:53 pm (UTC)
and if you haven't heard him read michael crichton's prey, you absolutely must. he's simply amazing!
1st-Jun-2007 04:51 pm (UTC)
I think "your" Foreman is totally in character. It's the Foreman of Half-wit there, efficient, clever, calm and compassionate. And I like that. Makes me forget the Foreman of Human Error.
I understand better Cuddy's points but I still think she, and Chase, gave up a little early. If House had signed a DNR and was in complete organs failure, I would have understand that they wanted so badly to respect his will. But here House is still "functioning", still alive, and where there is life, there is hope. Wilson is so right to fight a little more, to give another chance ! He's right for House obviously but also for him, and for...us !
thanks again, wonderful chapter.
1st-Jun-2007 05:03 pm (UTC)
But here House is still "functioning", still alive, and where there is life, there is hope.

you and wilson are in complete agreement on this point!

He's right for House obviously but also for him, and for...us !

and you and i are in agreement on this point!
1st-Jun-2007 05:43 pm (UTC)
I actually feel so sorry for Cuddy, caught between respecting House's wishes and ensuring Wilson's mental state. I am glad she's giving the ventilator a go though, even if it is more for Wilson than for House. I also loved Foreman's entrance. He's my least favourite of the ducklings but I admit he's the most mature and able to see things objectively (I doubt he'd have agreed to intubate House if he didn't think there was a chance).
1st-Jun-2007 06:27 pm (UTC)
He's my least favourite of the ducklings but I admit he's the most mature and able to see things objectively

absolutely! although i also agree with the folks who've pointed out that this is not the foreman the writers gave us in the last few episodes. i keep having to remind myself that these are the same writers who broke apart house and wilson, and then put them back together without so much as one blithering word of explanation. grrrrrrrrr.....
1st-Jun-2007 06:49 pm (UTC)
*sigh of relief* I know we're not out of the woods yet but I'll take what relief I can get lol. Loved Foreman in this by the way
1st-Jun-2007 06:56 pm (UTC)
I know we're not out of the woods yet but I'll take what relief I can get

so will wilson! ;)
1st-Jun-2007 06:53 pm (UTC)
You're breaking my heart! Even though it was a happy ending, the chapter stressed me out. I love that Foreman is still the "no-man" to House, but his time it actually is a benefit. Cuddy and Wilson are so great, and I love Wilson's determination to save his friend. I don't know if it's for selfish reasons, for House himself, or both, but I don't really care. As long as House lives (at least long enough to make things right).

Thank you for brightening this extremely rainy day!
1st-Jun-2007 07:00 pm (UTC)
I don't know if it's for selfish reasons, for House himself, or both, but I don't really care.

i think that wilson's conscious motives are pure--he honestly, sincerely believes he's doing all this for house. subconsciously, however, he needs a chance to redeem himself with house--hence his slip of the tongue while speaking with cuddy. and i'm not certain that even that is selfish so much as simply wanting an opportunity to--as you say--make things right.
1st-Jun-2007 07:11 pm (UTC)
OMG. OMG. There are no words. There are no words. This story is killing me. (But I like it.)
1st-Jun-2007 07:12 pm (UTC)
OMG. There are no words.

and... this is, i take it, a good thing? ;)
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